OThis is a personal experience which I am sure everyone can relate with. Hopefully the lessons shared would guide you along similar paths.
For the past two years, 2016 to be precise, the thought of responsibility began to burden me. There was a girl I liked and the thought of marriage, of financial stability and of being the kind of person that could raise a home successfully started to weigh me down. At a point, I was sliding into severe worry (all because of one person, smh). What was funny was that prior to that time, I had always assumed I knew what to do and prided myself in having a laid down plan for my life. I had always seemed quite confident about my future. And yet all it took was the prospect of a relationship to deal a huge blow to all that.
The truth is, many of us have either been or are currently in this position. You think about your future and all you see are dark clouds. You get tense every time someone asks you where you see yourself in the next five or ten years. You just graduated, and it looks like all your plans have been nothing more than fairy castles and dreams. I have at least one good news, you’re not alone. Many times I get the same question from people I meet: “How do I know God’s plan for my life?” or “I’m not sure what to do with my life”. And this holds whether you are a believer or not. Psychologists, shocked at this common occurrence, have even coined a name for it – midlife crisis.
I remember one night in particular, at the peak of my desperation I took a walk with God in the night, just trying to catch a little breath of clarity. The events that followed transformed my life. In the months that followed, God introduced me to a certain guideline that has kept me sane for over a year and counting. I’m hopeful that this article would help make it as clear to you as it did to me. And on just a side note, I want us to realise that in those moments of desperation, where all we can do is have a “talk” with God, nothing could be better. He does hear us and is sensitive to our experiences. So even if it doesn’t feel like it, God cares. Learn to trust in that, it would keep you on your darkest days.
And so what happened was that as the year 2016 began to round up, the texts in Proverbs 3:5-6 and Matthew 6:25-34 began to make so much sense to me. It climaxed on new years eve, where I heard clearly “take your life, one day at a time.” (That’s the abridged version of the story…lol). And that’s how “One step at a time” became my mantra for life ever since. I learnt to hold on to God’s revealed plan for my life and focus on TODAY. Even when doubts arise, when it looks like I’m not making progress, when the worrying thoughts try to creep in, it’s up to me to condition my mind and remind myself: I hold on to what God has told me, and I focus on making the most of the now.
One step at a time, and the journey would be completed. I may not see the path in the near future, I may not have a clear roadmap of everyday of my life till 80, but its good that way. It’s that uncertainty that teaches me to trust God every step of the way. And in the little steps, I make, things get clearer and clearer. Sometimes I begin to wonder, how would what I’m doing now lead up to that big picture, but like I said, I remind myself, “Is this what God would have me do now?”, the answer is yes. “What did he say the big plan is?”, I remind myself. At that point, I don’t bother any more. I focus on what I’m supposed to be doing now and trust God to link it up with the big picture.
And so it looks funny, that the solution was not a plan. And even till today, I don’t have a clear blueprint of how my life would play out and quite frankly I don’t need to. What I needed was not a detailed plan, but rather a change of mindset. I may not know all the details of tomorrow but I have never been more confident about my future.
I hope this has helped you to deal with your own feelings of worry. You may not have the full picture and that’s fine, hold on to what He has told you and begin to walk, one step at a time.